Today I have really struggled to write a post based on the Daily Post word “distant“. Funny, because I actually wrote three related posts, but deemed none of them appropriate to publish until this one. I know that the topics I wrote about are too personal and triggering for me. They would not be appreciated by some of my closest followers. Other topics using “distant” are just, well, too far in my long-term memory to pull out, or I’m just not in the mood to think about them. The word “distant” used to mean something far more exciting and exotic than it does now in my middle-age in my current situation, especially today on a gloomy day when my mood is a little low.
The use of “distant” in my mind today conjures up sad thoughts. Thoughts of peoples, places, and things I miss or moves that would take me out of my comfort zone, and might possibly overwhelm me severely and cause grief. I think that in general “close” is a much more comforting word today, with the exception of how close triggering thoughts are. I imagine some of you can understand that, for sure.