Non-triggering posts too distant in my mind

Today I have really struggled to write a post based on the Daily Post word “distant“. Funny, because I actually wrote three related posts, but deemed none of them appropriate to publish until this one. I know that the topics I wrote about are too personal and triggering for me. They would not be appreciated by some of my closest followers. Other topics using “distant” are just, well, too far in my long-term memory to pull out, or I’m just not in the mood to think about them. The word “distant” used to mean something far more exciting and exotic than it does now in my middle-age in my current situation, especially today on a gloomy day when my mood is a little low.

The use of “distant” in my mind today conjures up sad thoughts. Thoughts of peoples, places, and things I miss or moves that would take me out of my comfort zone, and might possibly overwhelm me severely and cause grief. I think that in general “close” is a much more comforting word today, with the exception of how close triggering thoughts are. I imagine some of you can understand that, for sure.

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11 thoughts on “Non-triggering posts too distant in my mind

  1. awritershelper June 4, 2017 / 9:24 pm

    I certainly understand. Nicely put too, the way you captured those emotions dealing with this trigger.

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    • updownflight June 4, 2017 / 9:34 pm

      Thanks, awritershelper. I considered not writing today, but I thought it would be helpful to recognize when I stumbled upon a trigger. I most likely won’t write about this again.

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  2. Cindy you are a strong lady and I’m sure over the years have tried many ways to dig yourself out of the black hole you must feel you live in. I hope one of those have been diet. Since our body is full of chemicals and food is a bunch of chemicals, interaction produces physiological brain chemistry changes. For example: if I could create an “anti-vitamin” which blocked all niacin from being absorbed into your system, you would literally go crazy. That’s how important good diet is! When I feel myself going down that hole due to the depressing grey skies, I increase spicy foods to release serotonin, a little more Vitamin D (not much, it’s fat soluble) garlic, (no wonder Mediterranean cultures seem happier) vegetables, fruits and so on. It produces confidence to feel in control and you can do this! Blessings back,

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    • updownflight June 5, 2017 / 1:04 pm

      Thanks Ellie, for the suggestions. At least I ate some spicey food this weekend.

      I know how important diet is for mental health. I actually do know what I should be eating, but moods can make you eat the wrong things sometimes. It really can be a struggle. I have luckily bought a lot of healthful foods this week at the store, so I have no excuse not to eat well. I will open up my Excell spreadsheet today and start tracking. That was a goal I set for myself this past weekend. Thanks for this encouragement to start me off. Have a great day!

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      • Cindy you are so right about the cravings you feel. It takes Herculean effort to overcome those because it your mind is trying to help you cope and overcome depression. (like the chocolate craving of the 50-cent amino acid word: phenylalanine which promotes feelings of happiness, contentment and even love.) I seldom have issues with that anymore since I consume a well- balanced diet regularly (anything in moderation, nothing off-limits) and must practice what I preach, 🙂 So staying one step ahead of it while eating nutritious foods has been the key for me but remember we all have a different chemical make-up. I appreciate that you took the time to respond.

        P.S. That spreadsheet record is so wonderful and as I said I wish I had clones of you for patients. Another practice I incorporated was taking at least a 10 minute walk in the fresh air one way and when I returned the cravings, depression and uncontrolled feelings were gone. Keep up the great work there Lady!!! ❤

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      • updownflight June 5, 2017 / 1:33 pm

        Again, what a wonderful motivator you are for me, Ellie! And yes, I definitely do need exercise. I got some this past Saturday, but I need to discipline myself to go out at least a few days during the week. I know that if I put it on a “To Do” list that I send my hubby, I almost always do it.

        Starchy carbs are my downfall, and I know they aren’t good for me in excess. I have high triglycerides (plus high cholesterol). The Excel sheet has daily limits for me on carb grams and fat grams, and also encourages me to eat lean proteins. I got that diet from a dietitian I saw a few years back. She helped me lose almost 35 lbs to reach a normal BMI again. Obviously I stopped seeing her. I have gained plenty of weight back, but only 10 of the 35 lbs. I know losing 10 lbs is not that big of a deal for me, if I WORK IT!

        I see you are a nutritional counselor. I’m lucky to have connected with you to receive your advice and encouragement. I’ll go back and read some of your posts on dieting.

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      • updownflight June 5, 2017 / 2:15 pm

        That’s very kind of you, Ellie 🙂

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