I wouldn’t really want to be a paragon

perfection is stagnation

I have yearned to be exceptionally accomplished in the past. When I was a kid I wanted to be a heroine, or the best ballerina in the world. In my young adult years I wanted to excel at my job and move very high up the ladder, to be the big boss. But as I grew older, and suffered great challenges, just being happy with being fair, good or notable in many respects suits me fine. I now see being a paragon as a lonely position to be in, requiring too much pressure to either perform or maintain such a distinction. Even if it wouldn’t take too much pressure to be “on top”, there wouldn’t be much of a challenge left. I’ve grown to like challenges and continuous learning. I even relish my imperfections, as long as there aren’t too many. Continue reading

Learning from Cats

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Right now, I am resigned to the necessity of patience and carefully calculated approaches. Being middle-aged, I have learned from the impulsivity of my youth. It took me a very long time to get to this point of control, and ability to safely stay put. Today, I’m aware how important it is to keep my eyes widely opened to make sure I know what is ahead, aside and behind me. Continue reading